soooooo i've turned seventeen :) hooray!
at 17, you still have to go to school, make friends, do up some proposals here and there, screw up tests, sleep in class etc etc. but it feels different :) i feel as though i have more command in whatever i do, i feel more freedom and maturity because i've finally reached the 'young adult' age. i feel certain (unwelcomed) pressure and responsibility that comes with the age where society generally agrees you should be self-disciplined enough and have an amibitious and perfect goal that you've already mapped out your steps and working hard for.
i've lost my train of thoughts because i was distracted by somethings on google. but yeah, something like that. this is what 17 feels like.
sorry for not updating and leaving my blog stale for the past month. have been too engaged in school/work/cca/activities. hahaha i sound damn busy but actually i procrastinate a lot. and also, i don't really feel much need to blog because i got myself a diary. ^.^ some sort of diary...
musicfest was awesome. first huge event within vjc and no regrets i went :)
birthday was awesome as well! ^.^ no surprises no parties no big bangs but easily one of the most emotionally satisfying birthdays ever :) began my day at 11am, when it was slightly drizzling and cooling outside. aircon inside and i treated myself to a cold packet of chocolate milk :) awesome start.
then went over to NJ for their carnival and met shujun, deborah and brendy - pple that i havent met in the longest time, especially shujun. spending almost 6 years going to school with her (and many other things), its only when i see her that i realised how much she's missing from my life :( we're not the bestest of friends, we dont laugh/cry/bitch together but.. our relationship is just special :)
deborah has been freaking MIA ever since we split. and everyone misses her :( how can she cope with all 3 student council, badminton and piano i have no idea but it was good seeing her again :) history buddies ftw! :D
then rushed over to sc to prepare for alumni performance, which turned out pretty awesome as well! ^.^ sc choir performed damn well, especially in their musical items. but mehh - most rewarding gift of the night: joshen, cheehao, haoran, kelvin ^.^ sup you guys! i have no idea whether you'll be reading this but thanks for coming down to support, even when my performance was barely 5 mins long. i know (hahaha because sc choir is awesome) you guys enjoyed the rest of the concert too so thank god :) in any words, i felt really happy for the 10-15 mins with you guys after the concert ^^ thanks for pearguin, for the card and for the pear. cheapstake much but hahaha at least its special :D thanks for singing the off-tune happy birthday (that is easily the funniest but the best i've ever heard) and thanks for all of you being so supportive. ok i should stop because guys don't like to read and write much. but yes glad we took a picture together :)
and then this friend of mine walked me to the bus stop after everything ended. :) awesome awesome awesome friend ^.^ even though we only had about 20 mins together, and we didn't talk about very deep stuff, but your company was all that's needed for my perfect day to end more than perfectly ^.^ so thank you for being there. (you know i feel so much more than this but i can only say this much here so hahaha)
relax guys this friend is just a friend :)
pw groupings are out, finally :) my group's awesome hahaha even though all of my closer friends are in some other group but heck. nua is nua he will always be awesome ^.^ rouhui's cool and a good, funny, can suan writer :) kelvin can do all the calculations for us hahaha and come up with some lousy sarcastic jokes (TROLOLOL) and anthea's the one that balances out all of us :) pw group made up of random people but we'll be the most awesome group ever ^.^ A levels pw let's goo! woohoo transformers! :)
i should be at nlb now mugging my head off but urgh im still in front of my computer. but oh well, this has been a satisfying post :) have never put so many smileys before. hahahaa
i shall see you guys around ^.^
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Sunday, April 8, 2012
let's go
yesterday i walked past a classroom and heard the guys from vj choir practising. they sounded so damn good and so damn in harmony. at first instance i was like poker face :/ but the next second i literally went "shitttttttt"
but life is too short for regrets so screw it. i shall enjoy my time in debate and iglobe ^.^ (do not spoil my self denial here) yeah but no la i'll work towards being comfortable in some other cca besides choir :)
i signed up for SMUN and i'm thinking whether is it a correct decision or not since i have near zero experience in that. i really need to start being shameless and speak up like my comments are godly.
term 2 is starting again. as much as i wanna see my friends again, i'm intimidated by the amt of work that's coming/scary cca trainings/ocip planning and every other shit that will jump out once tomorrow comes.
but ho-ho-ho jc lasts for only 2 years. i've gathered enough strength to last me through. (let's hope this so called strength will not crumble within a week like how i perceive it would hahahah)
but yes. term 2. let's go.
but life is too short for regrets so screw it. i shall enjoy my time in debate and iglobe ^.^ (do not spoil my self denial here) yeah but no la i'll work towards being comfortable in some other cca besides choir :)
i signed up for SMUN and i'm thinking whether is it a correct decision or not since i have near zero experience in that. i really need to start being shameless and speak up like my comments are godly.
term 2 is starting again. as much as i wanna see my friends again, i'm intimidated by the amt of work that's coming/scary cca trainings/ocip planning and every other shit that will jump out once tomorrow comes.
but ho-ho-ho jc lasts for only 2 years. i've gathered enough strength to last me through. (let's hope this so called strength will not crumble within a week like how i perceive it would hahahah)
but yes. term 2. let's go.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
pardon the self-proclaimed (im)maturity
though just barely 4 months into 2012, year 17 of my life has been the toughest by far. and i'm pretty sure, the remaining of the year, as well as 2013 would be a struggle as well.
not just academic, because that's not just the only shit you get out of being 17 or 18. lol i don't mean to sound angry because i'm not - shit is just a very common word that i use; its as equal as 'thing' to me so yeah.
the first word that jumps out to me when talking about 17 is the word survival. i'm not trying to sound very resigned or given up on life or something because i haven't. i guess the jump from secondary school to junior college is just so great that i'm taken aback sometimes and when i want time for a break, there isn't any. in scgs, we're hand held, probably every single step, in both academics and forming up your portfolio and basically teaching you 'survival techniques' for life later. but it didn't seem as intimidating then, because we're still enclosed in our small, own comfortable and non-threatening environment.
but come to 17, throwing us (or at least, me) into jc is like just releasing a new born kitten into a field of hungry and scavaging black dogs. suddenly whatever our teachers said "ohh next time you have to take more initiative", "oh next time you have to work for yourself", "oh you have to learn to be more independent" seems to be a thousand times harder to achieve than we previously thought.
i mean, not like i'm watching my every step in school or sth. in fact, i'm enjoying school because of really good friends and breaks :) but when it comes to actual work, actual future, it suddenly seems you're alone once again. if you want to study abroad, or in fact, just enroll in any local university, it is only your responsibility to beef up your portfolio and make it as outstanding as possible.
and i guess the most straightforward way to do so now is to either take part in some very prestigous competitions or take some leadership position in school/cca/class. since the former is left to only those academically-inclined people, which i'm not, sadly, i'm left with the latter. this brings me to the next thing on my list tonight - the question of whether to run for iglobe exco or not. honestly speaking, even if i get through, i won't feel happy because being in a leading position is not a natural thing for me. for instance, if i get elected to perhaps become, the pres/vice pres, i won't be happy for i don't like to do things out of responsibility. but simply just out of what i want to do. i would rather plan an outing/gathering as a good friend rather than from the position of the welfare head. more essentially, how am i supposed to lead when i'm not comfortable in that cca yet?
that being said, i turn back to consider the question of my resume/portfolio. if i don't take up these leadership positions, then would i be screwed? will i still be able to study overseas? of course, i believe many of my friends applying for exco either genuinely likes their cca/is a natural leader/wants to contribute more. i think its the nature of how society works - its only with merit and in the process, though not intentional on your part, outbeating others that you can move up and achieve what you want to achieve. which sucks big time, because it ultimately leads to - you or others? you or your friends? at those points in time, we're forced to unconsciously make a choice, and sometimes, your decision can be rather shameful.
truthfully, if society does not need that darned piece of paper called portfolio or resume, i wouldnt even give a single flying f- over what i do in school. but ohh the truth is always painful - if you're living in a place like singapore, that piece of paper is worth so much more than you think it is. and when you finally realise you need it, you're already in society.
but hohoho, i'm not a rebel, but i hate being forced to do what i don't want to do. which is why i probably won't run for exco or any other shit (or honour, depends on how you see it) near that. i'd do what i want to, what i like to, while working towards my dream. its gonna be hard, but sometimes peseverance is all that's needed :) just throw away all the stereotypes, all the social stigmas, all the judgemental looks and somehow you should be on the right track. sounds easy but hard to do i know i'm working on it too.
after all this, i would like to acknowledge that whatever above was not spurred by any devastating realisation so chill :) and for all friends who do not agree with me (you believe that perhaps working hard and seizing opportunities now is worth it for your future) then its ok as well :) to all friends who are running for exco, i am not judging you because i believe you guys are not selfish or self-centered people. to anybody that i've offended in this post, well too bad. (no la srsly i didn't mean it)
i hope this sudden increase in survivalist knowledge in me is not due to the hunger games which i watched on monday. by the way guys its a rather good (and understandable, for anybody who has not read the books) movie. plot is slightly sick (watching people kill each other for leisure but before that treating them like royalty) but engaging ^^
on a lighter noteeee, today i went for first study session at the airport with kelly, cheehao and joshen :) hahahha how do i put it, it was quite productive at the start, but after lunch it just all went downhill because we started playing monopoly deal/contact charades. hahahah we effectively wasted nearly 2 hours but oh well, it was good :) groupings like these and just laughing makes me feel happy ^^
i left early to meet a very special friend to go to the esplanade. hohoho the way we got there was as memorable and epic as the whole night but i shall not reveal anything here :) but basically we walked around (took freaking 15 min to decide on where to eat), ate at 'secret receipe', which was quite ok but rather expensive :/ and then walked to the esplanade (we were previously at marina square). initially we wanted to see some men made of wires being lit up at night but its rather sad they took them away :( but the sian-ness got away pretty quickly when we just sat by the river and looked at the view of mbs and the multiple lit-up buildings beside it. i mean, its common scene in singapore but going there at night is really different (you guys should try!!) and with a very special person beside me it gets alot more better :D sat there for about 40 mins, just looking and occasionally chatting and in the end taking pictures as well ^.^
in short, i wouldnt want the night to go any other way. i was peaceful and contented to be there then :) and even happier that my friend's happy as well ^^ (shit im like running out of smileys to use hahahha but argh i'll just reuse them since this is so smile-worthy) life is shit sometimes but nights like this tells you why you're still living :D thank you friend, for tonight :) as much as i love the view, i love your presence even more ^^
ok im done. i shall not talk about hbl week because... nobody talks about it. hbl week is hbl week.
not just academic, because that's not just the only shit you get out of being 17 or 18. lol i don't mean to sound angry because i'm not - shit is just a very common word that i use; its as equal as 'thing' to me so yeah.
the first word that jumps out to me when talking about 17 is the word survival. i'm not trying to sound very resigned or given up on life or something because i haven't. i guess the jump from secondary school to junior college is just so great that i'm taken aback sometimes and when i want time for a break, there isn't any. in scgs, we're hand held, probably every single step, in both academics and forming up your portfolio and basically teaching you 'survival techniques' for life later. but it didn't seem as intimidating then, because we're still enclosed in our small, own comfortable and non-threatening environment.
but come to 17, throwing us (or at least, me) into jc is like just releasing a new born kitten into a field of hungry and scavaging black dogs. suddenly whatever our teachers said "ohh next time you have to take more initiative", "oh next time you have to work for yourself", "oh you have to learn to be more independent" seems to be a thousand times harder to achieve than we previously thought.
i mean, not like i'm watching my every step in school or sth. in fact, i'm enjoying school because of really good friends and breaks :) but when it comes to actual work, actual future, it suddenly seems you're alone once again. if you want to study abroad, or in fact, just enroll in any local university, it is only your responsibility to beef up your portfolio and make it as outstanding as possible.
and i guess the most straightforward way to do so now is to either take part in some very prestigous competitions or take some leadership position in school/cca/class. since the former is left to only those academically-inclined people, which i'm not, sadly, i'm left with the latter. this brings me to the next thing on my list tonight - the question of whether to run for iglobe exco or not. honestly speaking, even if i get through, i won't feel happy because being in a leading position is not a natural thing for me. for instance, if i get elected to perhaps become, the pres/vice pres, i won't be happy for i don't like to do things out of responsibility. but simply just out of what i want to do. i would rather plan an outing/gathering as a good friend rather than from the position of the welfare head. more essentially, how am i supposed to lead when i'm not comfortable in that cca yet?
that being said, i turn back to consider the question of my resume/portfolio. if i don't take up these leadership positions, then would i be screwed? will i still be able to study overseas? of course, i believe many of my friends applying for exco either genuinely likes their cca/is a natural leader/wants to contribute more. i think its the nature of how society works - its only with merit and in the process, though not intentional on your part, outbeating others that you can move up and achieve what you want to achieve. which sucks big time, because it ultimately leads to - you or others? you or your friends? at those points in time, we're forced to unconsciously make a choice, and sometimes, your decision can be rather shameful.
truthfully, if society does not need that darned piece of paper called portfolio or resume, i wouldnt even give a single flying f- over what i do in school. but ohh the truth is always painful - if you're living in a place like singapore, that piece of paper is worth so much more than you think it is. and when you finally realise you need it, you're already in society.
but hohoho, i'm not a rebel, but i hate being forced to do what i don't want to do. which is why i probably won't run for exco or any other shit (or honour, depends on how you see it) near that. i'd do what i want to, what i like to, while working towards my dream. its gonna be hard, but sometimes peseverance is all that's needed :) just throw away all the stereotypes, all the social stigmas, all the judgemental looks and somehow you should be on the right track. sounds easy but hard to do i know i'm working on it too.
after all this, i would like to acknowledge that whatever above was not spurred by any devastating realisation so chill :) and for all friends who do not agree with me (you believe that perhaps working hard and seizing opportunities now is worth it for your future) then its ok as well :) to all friends who are running for exco, i am not judging you because i believe you guys are not selfish or self-centered people. to anybody that i've offended in this post, well too bad. (no la srsly i didn't mean it)
i hope this sudden increase in survivalist knowledge in me is not due to the hunger games which i watched on monday. by the way guys its a rather good (and understandable, for anybody who has not read the books) movie. plot is slightly sick (watching people kill each other for leisure but before that treating them like royalty) but engaging ^^
on a lighter noteeee, today i went for first study session at the airport with kelly, cheehao and joshen :) hahahha how do i put it, it was quite productive at the start, but after lunch it just all went downhill because we started playing monopoly deal/contact charades. hahahah we effectively wasted nearly 2 hours but oh well, it was good :) groupings like these and just laughing makes me feel happy ^^
i left early to meet a very special friend to go to the esplanade. hohoho the way we got there was as memorable and epic as the whole night but i shall not reveal anything here :) but basically we walked around (took freaking 15 min to decide on where to eat), ate at 'secret receipe', which was quite ok but rather expensive :/ and then walked to the esplanade (we were previously at marina square). initially we wanted to see some men made of wires being lit up at night but its rather sad they took them away :( but the sian-ness got away pretty quickly when we just sat by the river and looked at the view of mbs and the multiple lit-up buildings beside it. i mean, its common scene in singapore but going there at night is really different (you guys should try!!) and with a very special person beside me it gets alot more better :D sat there for about 40 mins, just looking and occasionally chatting and in the end taking pictures as well ^.^
in short, i wouldnt want the night to go any other way. i was peaceful and contented to be there then :) and even happier that my friend's happy as well ^^ (shit im like running out of smileys to use hahahha but argh i'll just reuse them since this is so smile-worthy) life is shit sometimes but nights like this tells you why you're still living :D thank you friend, for tonight :) as much as i love the view, i love your presence even more ^^
ok im done. i shall not talk about hbl week because... nobody talks about it. hbl week is hbl week.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Monday, March 26, 2012
one does not simply
take pw too simply. because that was what i initially did and thought, but now, pw is just being a pain. its true pw does bring a relief out from all the turning-out-to-be disgusting equations, symbols, economics terms/jargon, history facts and just the mundane school life itself, but oh hell does it add on to the mounting supply of work and overwhelming stress of jc life. oh gawd the only relief and solace i can seek comfort from are my pw group mates, who i all hope are fun but still hardworking people.
one does not simply, too, underestimate the abilities of a small acapella group made up of schoir alumni :) we sounded quite nice on saturday's prac! seeing and working with the 09' seniors again made me think of 2009 syf, how memorable salve and ba jun zan were but also how afraid and intimidated i was of them. but currently, when all of us come back together as a united gang, we're again reminded of how music and singing breaks all age boundaries and make us appreciate each other just for that. plus i really missed the harmonising that comes so naturally ^^ in short, we really rock. so do come and watch our concert ^^
first week of term 2's really shit actually. apart from friends, the workload is doubling up and nearly all the teachers are telling us that all of us are gonna die in term 2 -.- what a great way to start right.
ok running 4.8 first thing in the morning tomorrow :)) honestly speaking, i'm rather excited because i feel like i haven't ran in a long while. plus, hearing all the odac-ers running 9-10km makes me want to run as well. i just hope i don't die halfway :/
mehh ok screw this. i'm going to bed nao ^.^
hang in there guys! term 2 will pass quickly. we have... 9 weeks left. hur hur hur
one does not simply underestimate the time she thinks is left till the next holiday.
one does not simply, too, underestimate the abilities of a small acapella group made up of schoir alumni :) we sounded quite nice on saturday's prac! seeing and working with the 09' seniors again made me think of 2009 syf, how memorable salve and ba jun zan were but also how afraid and intimidated i was of them. but currently, when all of us come back together as a united gang, we're again reminded of how music and singing breaks all age boundaries and make us appreciate each other just for that. plus i really missed the harmonising that comes so naturally ^^ in short, we really rock. so do come and watch our concert ^^
first week of term 2's really shit actually. apart from friends, the workload is doubling up and nearly all the teachers are telling us that all of us are gonna die in term 2 -.- what a great way to start right.
ok running 4.8 first thing in the morning tomorrow :)) honestly speaking, i'm rather excited because i feel like i haven't ran in a long while. plus, hearing all the odac-ers running 9-10km makes me want to run as well. i just hope i don't die halfway :/
mehh ok screw this. i'm going to bed nao ^.^
hang in there guys! term 2 will pass quickly. we have... 9 weeks left. hur hur hur
one does not simply underestimate the time she thinks is left till the next holiday.
Friday, March 16, 2012
awesome friend is awesome
may i not forget that i have a promise with this very special person 10 years later :))
thank you friend for this morning ^^ you know who you are! heehee
thank you friend for this morning ^^ you know who you are! heehee
Thursday, March 15, 2012
the amount of fast food i ate this week
is so unforgiveable and sinful that i deserve to die a 100 times over.
ok maybe not. but you get my point. i've never eaten so much fast food in my life within the span of 6 days. since last friday, i've been in contact with a fast food restuarant (and by contact i don't mean passing by it and saying hi to ronald macdonalds or mr. kfc) everyday.
i have half a mind to list out the atrocities i've committed the past week but i think if i really do, you guys will be so disgusted by me. i myself would be reminded again of how gross i am right now and the overwhelming, choking, up-to-the-neck layers of fats and lipids accumulated in my tummy and thighs and arms and who knows where. more importantly, whatever's unhealthy in kfc cheese fries, mac's shaker seaweed fries and eating mos burger 3 days in a row (that's just the icing on the cake friends) is gonna be so detrimental to my health and fitness. omg urgh i think running 100km is now is not even enough to get rid of what i shoved down my throat mindlessly the past 6 days. and i'm not even joking.
i am gonna go run later, no doubt. and going to change my route this time heeheee. i don't wanna be portrayed as this vain girl who only runs to slim down and get rid of the wrong shit she ate. i seriously want to be healthy and fit. FAST FOOD Y U DO THIS TO ME. MOS BURGER Y U SO APPEALING.
but NO i shall not regret for i have food. nearly one billion people in the world go hungry every night. and our society has just welcomed the 7th billionth human being. which means, 1 out of 7 babies will be born hungry.
so guys don't waste food :) omg why am i preaching on my blog. but guys get it you should eat all you want (so that i won't feel that bad too hahahahah). k no seriously don't waste food. imagine how much you can help those poor kids suffering out there without parents, without money, without proper hygiene and sanitation, and without food by giving them your dinner :( (omg i so wanna get into OCIP ahh interview next week how!!)
furthermore, worse come to worst, you can just run it off like how i am going to do in a while. just eat. afterall, 吃是福。
但是真的不要吃太多。
ok maybe not. but you get my point. i've never eaten so much fast food in my life within the span of 6 days. since last friday, i've been in contact with a fast food restuarant (and by contact i don't mean passing by it and saying hi to ronald macdonalds or mr. kfc) everyday.
i have half a mind to list out the atrocities i've committed the past week but i think if i really do, you guys will be so disgusted by me. i myself would be reminded again of how gross i am right now and the overwhelming, choking, up-to-the-neck layers of fats and lipids accumulated in my tummy and thighs and arms and who knows where. more importantly, whatever's unhealthy in kfc cheese fries, mac's shaker seaweed fries and eating mos burger 3 days in a row (that's just the icing on the cake friends) is gonna be so detrimental to my health and fitness. omg urgh i think running 100km is now is not even enough to get rid of what i shoved down my throat mindlessly the past 6 days. and i'm not even joking.
i am gonna go run later, no doubt. and going to change my route this time heeheee. i don't wanna be portrayed as this vain girl who only runs to slim down and get rid of the wrong shit she ate. i seriously want to be healthy and fit. FAST FOOD Y U DO THIS TO ME. MOS BURGER Y U SO APPEALING.
but NO i shall not regret for i have food. nearly one billion people in the world go hungry every night. and our society has just welcomed the 7th billionth human being. which means, 1 out of 7 babies will be born hungry.
so guys don't waste food :) omg why am i preaching on my blog. but guys get it you should eat all you want (so that i won't feel that bad too hahahahah). k no seriously don't waste food. imagine how much you can help those poor kids suffering out there without parents, without money, without proper hygiene and sanitation, and without food by giving them your dinner :( (omg i so wanna get into OCIP ahh interview next week how!!)
furthermore, worse come to worst, you can just run it off like how i am going to do in a while. just eat. afterall, 吃是福。
但是真的不要吃太多。
Saturday, March 10, 2012
in, or out?
so yesterday when i was on the bus to bugis, i saw an old man, probably 60-70 years of age, holding a samsung galaxy (looks like it) and watching a video on it. so at first instance i thought, 'oh wow, what a techno-pro, into the latest trend, old man. but at the next instant, i saw that he was watching a video of a classical shanghai-night concert, with elaborate stage backgrounds, brighter than anything stage lights, the lead singer in a cheongsum with all her background dancers, in similar outfits, holding traditional chinese fans that cover half their faces.
i believe this was what he was listening to (because i saw the chinese lyrics at the bottom of the screen). this song, but not this video of course.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKiN2g5IrIE
so while i was trying to work my memory to remember what song he was listening to (because lyrics looked familiar), my brain started processing the situation and made a conclusion that instead of being a tech savvy old man i thought he was seconds before, this video, and presumeably many other similar ones, are probably downloaded and saved into the phone by his son in the hope of giving his old man some entertainment while he's travelling.
so just when i came to a conclusion and decided to mind my own business, this old dude stopped his chinese-y video and changed it. and the next thing i saw, was the video "We are the World", compiled by 8 artists (the one with MJ) more than 25 years ago for africa on the screen.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xy1gp3F5NhY
and at that point in time, and even now, i'm still at a loss of what to conclude about this old man. but something so impressionistic of this old man is that he kind of just broke all the stereotypes i had in less than a minute. instead of pitying him for his loneliness, i was impressed by his actual ability and knowledge of such a gadget (regardless of whether the phone is his or not). instead of thinking he probably only knows chinese, i know now at least i can communicate to him in english. instead of forming the image of an unreasonable old man in my head, a well-versed old yet amiable professor comes into mind.
so see. one's actions are so powerful. and never judge a book by its cover.
but then again, he might have been a very lonely father, neglected by his kids, and probably just fidgeting with the different foreign things on this screen he found while on the bus back to his one-room, rarely visited flat.
but nah, i don't think so :)
and hii group leader :) this post is for you. hope you'll still stay strong at 60, just like this old man. and even more, hopefully i'll be sitting on the bus with you, still being your very good friend ^.^
i believe this was what he was listening to (because i saw the chinese lyrics at the bottom of the screen). this song, but not this video of course.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKiN2g5IrIE
so while i was trying to work my memory to remember what song he was listening to (because lyrics looked familiar), my brain started processing the situation and made a conclusion that instead of being a tech savvy old man i thought he was seconds before, this video, and presumeably many other similar ones, are probably downloaded and saved into the phone by his son in the hope of giving his old man some entertainment while he's travelling.
so just when i came to a conclusion and decided to mind my own business, this old dude stopped his chinese-y video and changed it. and the next thing i saw, was the video "We are the World", compiled by 8 artists (the one with MJ) more than 25 years ago for africa on the screen.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xy1gp3F5NhY
and at that point in time, and even now, i'm still at a loss of what to conclude about this old man. but something so impressionistic of this old man is that he kind of just broke all the stereotypes i had in less than a minute. instead of pitying him for his loneliness, i was impressed by his actual ability and knowledge of such a gadget (regardless of whether the phone is his or not). instead of thinking he probably only knows chinese, i know now at least i can communicate to him in english. instead of forming the image of an unreasonable old man in my head, a well-versed old yet amiable professor comes into mind.
so see. one's actions are so powerful. and never judge a book by its cover.
but then again, he might have been a very lonely father, neglected by his kids, and probably just fidgeting with the different foreign things on this screen he found while on the bus back to his one-room, rarely visited flat.
but nah, i don't think so :)
and hii group leader :) this post is for you. hope you'll still stay strong at 60, just like this old man. and even more, hopefully i'll be sitting on the bus with you, still being your very good friend ^.^
Thursday, March 8, 2012
tired enough to fall asleep within ten seconds of hitting the pillow
but yay term 1 completed. :)
actually why am i rejoicing because jc term 1 is going to be the slackest term of jc life ever. why am i happy that its over?!
tomorrow's a full day off, credits to our grand seniors who did damn freaking well in A's as compared to the last 5 years and (i heard hehehehe) even beating hc at certain subjects! hahahah oleh!
come to think of it, third period pe, then lepaking around with classmates, then going home with sanjay (yes im calling krishan sanjay now because i realised i've been pronouncing his name wrongly -.-) make up a perfect combination to end the term ^^ third period pe was okay. i guess we were allowed to slack off (abit) due to our teacher's absence and other slacker younger teacher took over. hahhaa it was a nice workout and after that lepaking at class bench with classmates is so.. unforgettable. hahah its like having fun under the evening sun (lame and cliche omg) without stress because of an impending one week break. playing cards pretty blatantly for most of the teachers have went home while listening to s62's very own lovebirds singing and harmonising on the guitar over and over again :)
sanjay came over and lepaked with us till about 6, when we left for home. on the bus, he told me so many damn interesting (and sick) things about sji and the stupid things he've done to attain himself a pink form (which, in sji standards, is the highest level of demerit you can get because every 3 pink form results in expulsion). seriously i haven't laughed like that for a very long time and thankfully for him, bus rides home are no longer boring :) only disadvantage is that i no longer can nap on the bus! i felt so bad cause at one point in time i think i actually fell asleep for a few seconds. hahahaa which explains for my title; i'm so exhausted now that i don't even have the energy for dinner! :/
so term 1 has been fine :) officially in debate and iglobe now (the latter is more fun though in my opinion), which is a refreshing change from choir but listening to the lovebirds harmonise makes me so nostalgic and miss sc choir a lot :(( homework and tests definitely on the rise, so so is stress and competition. but we shouldn't really be too freaked out this year because next year would be 100x worse shit.
s62 is fine ^^ although we may be a little divided, but most of us just more or less stay with one another. made close friends, good friends and during break bridge club and mono deal club friends. hahah i believed over time we'll all get closer so yeah ^^ we shall see :) am currently planning for an og (cyclops!!!) dinner tomorrow with justinian. hopefully everything goes welll :)) those are a bunch of people that i've missed :(
k bye i'm freaking nua (LOL this is s62's word) now. i'll see you guys later yeah. ok can.
actually why am i rejoicing because jc term 1 is going to be the slackest term of jc life ever. why am i happy that its over?!
tomorrow's a full day off, credits to our grand seniors who did damn freaking well in A's as compared to the last 5 years and (i heard hehehehe) even beating hc at certain subjects! hahahah oleh!
come to think of it, third period pe, then lepaking around with classmates, then going home with sanjay (yes im calling krishan sanjay now because i realised i've been pronouncing his name wrongly -.-) make up a perfect combination to end the term ^^ third period pe was okay. i guess we were allowed to slack off (abit) due to our teacher's absence and other slacker younger teacher took over. hahhaa it was a nice workout and after that lepaking at class bench with classmates is so.. unforgettable. hahah its like having fun under the evening sun (lame and cliche omg) without stress because of an impending one week break. playing cards pretty blatantly for most of the teachers have went home while listening to s62's very own lovebirds singing and harmonising on the guitar over and over again :)
sanjay came over and lepaked with us till about 6, when we left for home. on the bus, he told me so many damn interesting (and sick) things about sji and the stupid things he've done to attain himself a pink form (which, in sji standards, is the highest level of demerit you can get because every 3 pink form results in expulsion). seriously i haven't laughed like that for a very long time and thankfully for him, bus rides home are no longer boring :) only disadvantage is that i no longer can nap on the bus! i felt so bad cause at one point in time i think i actually fell asleep for a few seconds. hahahaa which explains for my title; i'm so exhausted now that i don't even have the energy for dinner! :/
so term 1 has been fine :) officially in debate and iglobe now (the latter is more fun though in my opinion), which is a refreshing change from choir but listening to the lovebirds harmonise makes me so nostalgic and miss sc choir a lot :(( homework and tests definitely on the rise, so so is stress and competition. but we shouldn't really be too freaked out this year because next year would be 100x worse shit.
s62 is fine ^^ although we may be a little divided, but most of us just more or less stay with one another. made close friends, good friends and during break bridge club and mono deal club friends. hahah i believed over time we'll all get closer so yeah ^^ we shall see :) am currently planning for an og (cyclops!!!) dinner tomorrow with justinian. hopefully everything goes welll :)) those are a bunch of people that i've missed :(
k bye i'm freaking nua (LOL this is s62's word) now. i'll see you guys later yeah. ok can.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
the firsts (and sometimes not)
i guess one of the main events in life that's constantly happening, yet to our ignorance or stoicness is ageing. it really feels like just a few days ago where i was dreading secondary school, a few days ago where i saw my senior holding the social studies "sec 4 & 5" book while thinking i would be the one holding it next year and now, i'm passed my 2nd stage of education in singapore and currenly in jc. now, secondary school is considered 'the past', something that i haven't seen coming at all, or that 'the past' was a label that simply and solely belonged to primary school.
i'm 17. to all that's born in the same year as i am, you're 17. scgs friends, brenda, yanru, gwen, inez, chengmun, whoever's reading this, you're 17. (surprise!!!) being 17 in vj has exposed me to many first times (chill no kiss no premarital sex) but has also brought me back many fond memories of primary school.
the f word has never been on the tip of my tongue so many times until i came into vj. in fact i've already broken my taboo long ago and said the f word, just that i mute myself before that. saying the f word actually seriously gives you a huge sense of relief and liberty. its so crude yet so relieving. does that even make sense? actually does this whole paragraph even do because i have no idea why i'm writing a paragraph on the f word.
i went to pool on tuesday, for the first time in my life. honestly i don't think i've great talent in that area, especially the hand positioning. plus the area where people play pool is abit scary, with all the hooligans-looking people, it feels like they're gonna challenge or spring on you the next moment or sth. tsk, better get my black belt ready. yeah but apart from that, pool is a nice activity to be sharing with your friends, esp with the accompaniment of sick jokes. hahaha
mock napfa on wednesday was... shit surprising. in all aspects of the 2 words. shit because somehow i didn't manage to pass inclined pull up (not boasting but wtheck i could easily do 8 2 days before!!) ahh, overestimation yet again. and halfway through 2.4 my thighs started hurting again and i had to stop :( even though i ran the remaining 2 rounds back, its still not the same!! surprising because i passed sbj the first try. not bad not bad, but again, i found the length abit shorter but ahh well :/ grr remedial pe screw you but whatever at least i get to work out.
anyway teasingggggg's back ^^ i actually miss it because the last time i (or with my other make-trouble classmates) tease someone was back in primary school. spreading stupid class rumours and stuff. it was fun then but i guess now i have to be more careful (and less) about it because it can get irritating.
why am i even staying here. i don't wanna talk liao. see you guys soon yo
i'm 17. to all that's born in the same year as i am, you're 17. scgs friends, brenda, yanru, gwen, inez, chengmun, whoever's reading this, you're 17. (surprise!!!) being 17 in vj has exposed me to many first times (chill no kiss no premarital sex) but has also brought me back many fond memories of primary school.
the f word has never been on the tip of my tongue so many times until i came into vj. in fact i've already broken my taboo long ago and said the f word, just that i mute myself before that. saying the f word actually seriously gives you a huge sense of relief and liberty. its so crude yet so relieving. does that even make sense? actually does this whole paragraph even do because i have no idea why i'm writing a paragraph on the f word.
i went to pool on tuesday, for the first time in my life. honestly i don't think i've great talent in that area, especially the hand positioning. plus the area where people play pool is abit scary, with all the hooligans-looking people, it feels like they're gonna challenge or spring on you the next moment or sth. tsk, better get my black belt ready. yeah but apart from that, pool is a nice activity to be sharing with your friends, esp with the accompaniment of sick jokes. hahaha
mock napfa on wednesday was... shit surprising. in all aspects of the 2 words. shit because somehow i didn't manage to pass inclined pull up (not boasting but wtheck i could easily do 8 2 days before!!) ahh, overestimation yet again. and halfway through 2.4 my thighs started hurting again and i had to stop :( even though i ran the remaining 2 rounds back, its still not the same!! surprising because i passed sbj the first try. not bad not bad, but again, i found the length abit shorter but ahh well :/ grr remedial pe screw you but whatever at least i get to work out.
anyway teasingggggg's back ^^ i actually miss it because the last time i (or with my other make-trouble classmates) tease someone was back in primary school. spreading stupid class rumours and stuff. it was fun then but i guess now i have to be more careful (and less) about it because it can get irritating.
why am i even staying here. i don't wanna talk liao. see you guys soon yo
Sunday, February 26, 2012
coming up with a title can be such a bother sometimes
for some weird ass reason, vjc has this policy of having a mock napfa before the real one. if you pass mock napfa, you are exempted from remedial pe. which means, exempted from running and doing drills and this and that under the 3pm hot sun. which also means, you get to go home early on tuesday, get to buy perhaps a each a cup and reach home comfortably before 4. sounds damn easy right. because in a normal person's case, passing napfa means reaching just an E for every station. but well vjc has its own catch: by passing, it means silver.
in other words, its at least 27-28 sit ups, sit and reach 40-43cm, 11.6-11.8s for shuttle run, 172-180cm for standing broad jump, 11-13 inclined pull ups, and 14:51-15:50 for 2.4.
let me repeat.
172-180 standing broad jump, 11-13 inclined pull ups, and 14:51-1550 for 2.4
172-180 jump, 11-13 pull ups, less than 15:50 for 2.4
172-180 jump, 11-13 pull ups, less than 15:50 for 2.4
those who are fit and whatever, shut up and don't judge. since i don't know when i've been barely scraping a pass for my standing broad jump. jumping only 1.5m is not funny. plus, sc pe teachers are so kind and benevolent, who knows, i might have only reached a 1.4 but they charitably gave me 10cm more. pull ups are worse. perhaps only after the third one, the vessels in my face are as if stretched to their limit and threatening to burst anytime, hence making my face red. accompanied with my sweat and painful (yet fruitless) effort i'm putting in, it makes me look so constipated. i'm not too worried yet for 2.4 since i did run less than 15:50 last year but may my timings not drop.
brr its 2.20 half of sunday is gone! hopefully i'll get enough motivation to crawl out of my chair to go downstairs to run. and then i'll go to starbucks (lol and drink all the calories back) to read! yesterday i went back to sc to crash prize giving ceremony. SCGS Y U NO GIVE ME AWARD. but hahah thankfully no money. only a medal. but still SCGS Y U NO GIVE ME AWARD. got to meet a lot of people (esp classmates) people like huifen, nut, addy, cherlyn all seem to be doing well in RJ. shobs chevelle eunice seems equally good in IB too. xinle, yuanbing, denise, cristy kang enjoying themselves in HC. deborah the twins rockin it in NJ.
well but more importantly i got to meet up with my sy gang! all ruoning, inez, pei, chengmun, seah, zing, zhimun and steph were there! only kim was missing :( but anyway, its great meeting them again. its a relief from jc life you know, esp in vj where sc people are at the minimal. its nice being soaked in the familiarity of both the people and the environment where you know almost everyone you see and everyone waves back when you wave at them.
anyway we went to ion, which was a spontaneous decision made on the train at orchard station and of afterwhich we ran out of the doors but unfortunately ruoning got left behind :( so she took the train back. hahah which is actually quite hilarious. then we went to burger king for dinner and blah blah. wasn't talking too much due to this shit headache i had and blocked nose :(
ahh well march hols kbox would be better so.. !! :))
see you guys soon. hopefully mock napfa goes well :/
in other words, its at least 27-28 sit ups, sit and reach 40-43cm, 11.6-11.8s for shuttle run, 172-180cm for standing broad jump, 11-13 inclined pull ups, and 14:51-15:50 for 2.4.
let me repeat.
172-180 standing broad jump, 11-13 inclined pull ups, and 14:51-1550 for 2.4
172-180 jump, 11-13 pull ups, less than 15:50 for 2.4
172-180 jump, 11-13 pull ups, less than 15:50 for 2.4
those who are fit and whatever, shut up and don't judge. since i don't know when i've been barely scraping a pass for my standing broad jump. jumping only 1.5m is not funny. plus, sc pe teachers are so kind and benevolent, who knows, i might have only reached a 1.4 but they charitably gave me 10cm more. pull ups are worse. perhaps only after the third one, the vessels in my face are as if stretched to their limit and threatening to burst anytime, hence making my face red. accompanied with my sweat and painful (yet fruitless) effort i'm putting in, it makes me look so constipated. i'm not too worried yet for 2.4 since i did run less than 15:50 last year but may my timings not drop.
brr its 2.20 half of sunday is gone! hopefully i'll get enough motivation to crawl out of my chair to go downstairs to run. and then i'll go to starbucks (lol and drink all the calories back) to read! yesterday i went back to sc to crash prize giving ceremony. SCGS Y U NO GIVE ME AWARD. but hahah thankfully no money. only a medal. but still SCGS Y U NO GIVE ME AWARD. got to meet a lot of people (esp classmates) people like huifen, nut, addy, cherlyn all seem to be doing well in RJ. shobs chevelle eunice seems equally good in IB too. xinle, yuanbing, denise, cristy kang enjoying themselves in HC. deborah the twins rockin it in NJ.
well but more importantly i got to meet up with my sy gang! all ruoning, inez, pei, chengmun, seah, zing, zhimun and steph were there! only kim was missing :( but anyway, its great meeting them again. its a relief from jc life you know, esp in vj where sc people are at the minimal. its nice being soaked in the familiarity of both the people and the environment where you know almost everyone you see and everyone waves back when you wave at them.
anyway we went to ion, which was a spontaneous decision made on the train at orchard station and of afterwhich we ran out of the doors but unfortunately ruoning got left behind :( so she took the train back. hahah which is actually quite hilarious. then we went to burger king for dinner and blah blah. wasn't talking too much due to this shit headache i had and blocked nose :(
ahh well march hols kbox would be better so.. !! :))
see you guys soon. hopefully mock napfa goes well :/
Friday, February 17, 2012
'那些年'
automatically brings one back to his or her own, favourite fond memories. of times with friends, of times with besties, of times with the person you're most comfortable with, of all the times spent under the sun, living out each second with your favourite group of people, as if there was going to be no tomorrow. but tomorrow always come (in this context) and eventually we all go our separate ways and are forced to make new friends and new memories, no matter how much we don't want to.
nostalgia, and a bit of emptiness soon take over after the reminiscing and you start to feel sad for all the missed times and disappointment at why didn't you cherish them more, why didn't you take a few more pictures, why didn't you express love for them even more. its all too late, you realise, as everyone you care about is now elsewhere, off making new friends and making new memories. a pity i guess. but then soon you take comfort in the fact that they'll probably be still the ones that will stay with you all the way in life, and you're never gonna lose them. naturally then you cheer up, and continue making new friends, new memories, but still in your heart, willing for them to believe that they'll still be the most important friends and shoulders in your life.
probably this is why the song of the same title by 胡夏 is the very first one that can touch me to tears. (i swear, no other songs have made me teared before) not only because of how relatable the song is to me (everyone, in fact) but because the song itself has a really touching story behind it. if anyone of you haven't catch 《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》, you should, immediately. its a nice story, and even a nicer song.
met up with gwen, son, chan and mow (like 1/100th of the choir girls) at burger shack on saturday. to be honest, i'm not trying to be very dramatic over this, but i really felt that something has changed. its not a bad change, but i just felt as if we really began a new chapter of our lives, and we've all grown up. but despite that, we still retain all our old selves, the way of treating each other, the way of behaving outside when with each other, the feelings we get when we see each other. that is a good thing. i really felt as if we have been separated for 10 years or so and are now meeting up in our mid 30s or whatsoever. anyway it was only when i saw them again that i realised how much i've missed them :( i miss gwen's regular forgetfulness and overthinking, making herself depressed (this is no good thing, but its gwen), son's dramatic but funny and true imitations and movements, chan's forever loud and self-praising and bordering on bimbotic, mow's forever 'guai kia' image. and many and many others that couldn't turn up on sat.
then moving to ion that evening where i met my sy friends - chengmun, steph and seah, who (plus at at least 5 others who couldn't come) are a total different bunch of friends from the choiristers. less loud but we share more intellectual and gossipy and dirty conversations. i miss them so much. if not for them, sec 4 wouldn't have been that bearable and enjoyable. its amazing how a group of maybe 8, 9 people can come together when we all have considerably directly opposite personalities. like chengmun's disgust at overly neat stuff VS inez's 'law of straightness', ing's bit pessimistic introverted bipolarity VS kim's weirdness and bluntness towards zing (and us), pei's crazy, dramatic way of speaking VS steph's constant rational and backed up words (they both know a hell lot though) etc etc etc. we're meeting up for bowling soon! yes!!
and i saw krishan on 966 the other day. move to the back of the bus without him knowing and surprised him. hahahah come to think of it, we're actually quite fated since we ended up in sji and scgs (basically schools that are beside each other) from zhps and now we're together in vj. caught up a lot on the hour ride home. talked about both our classes, our friends and happenings in vj. glad that everything's still the same and we're equally open about our questions so ^^
oh and have i said. i'm currently supposed to be at an odac OLC selection camp at ubin. but due to a freaking shit as hell bad sprain on both my back thighs (and a bit of tear), i have to drop out of odac camp! which sucks because the odac camp training was so damn fun. but regardless, over is over, here i wish all of HURRICANE (my team) all the best. even though they won't be able to see this, but i'll send them the most amount of mental energy for them for them to pull through! jiayou jiayou!
nostalgia, and a bit of emptiness soon take over after the reminiscing and you start to feel sad for all the missed times and disappointment at why didn't you cherish them more, why didn't you take a few more pictures, why didn't you express love for them even more. its all too late, you realise, as everyone you care about is now elsewhere, off making new friends and making new memories. a pity i guess. but then soon you take comfort in the fact that they'll probably be still the ones that will stay with you all the way in life, and you're never gonna lose them. naturally then you cheer up, and continue making new friends, new memories, but still in your heart, willing for them to believe that they'll still be the most important friends and shoulders in your life.
probably this is why the song of the same title by 胡夏 is the very first one that can touch me to tears. (i swear, no other songs have made me teared before) not only because of how relatable the song is to me (everyone, in fact) but because the song itself has a really touching story behind it. if anyone of you haven't catch 《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》, you should, immediately. its a nice story, and even a nicer song.
met up with gwen, son, chan and mow (like 1/100th of the choir girls) at burger shack on saturday. to be honest, i'm not trying to be very dramatic over this, but i really felt that something has changed. its not a bad change, but i just felt as if we really began a new chapter of our lives, and we've all grown up. but despite that, we still retain all our old selves, the way of treating each other, the way of behaving outside when with each other, the feelings we get when we see each other. that is a good thing. i really felt as if we have been separated for 10 years or so and are now meeting up in our mid 30s or whatsoever. anyway it was only when i saw them again that i realised how much i've missed them :( i miss gwen's regular forgetfulness and overthinking, making herself depressed (this is no good thing, but its gwen), son's dramatic but funny and true imitations and movements, chan's forever loud and self-praising and bordering on bimbotic, mow's forever 'guai kia' image. and many and many others that couldn't turn up on sat.
then moving to ion that evening where i met my sy friends - chengmun, steph and seah, who (plus at at least 5 others who couldn't come) are a total different bunch of friends from the choiristers. less loud but we share more intellectual and gossipy and dirty conversations. i miss them so much. if not for them, sec 4 wouldn't have been that bearable and enjoyable. its amazing how a group of maybe 8, 9 people can come together when we all have considerably directly opposite personalities. like chengmun's disgust at overly neat stuff VS inez's 'law of straightness', ing's bit pessimistic introverted bipolarity VS kim's weirdness and bluntness towards zing (and us), pei's crazy, dramatic way of speaking VS steph's constant rational and backed up words (they both know a hell lot though) etc etc etc. we're meeting up for bowling soon! yes!!
and i saw krishan on 966 the other day. move to the back of the bus without him knowing and surprised him. hahahah come to think of it, we're actually quite fated since we ended up in sji and scgs (basically schools that are beside each other) from zhps and now we're together in vj. caught up a lot on the hour ride home. talked about both our classes, our friends and happenings in vj. glad that everything's still the same and we're equally open about our questions so ^^
oh and have i said. i'm currently supposed to be at an odac OLC selection camp at ubin. but due to a freaking shit as hell bad sprain on both my back thighs (and a bit of tear), i have to drop out of odac camp! which sucks because the odac camp training was so damn fun. but regardless, over is over, here i wish all of HURRICANE (my team) all the best. even though they won't be able to see this, but i'll send them the most amount of mental energy for them for them to pull through! jiayou jiayou!
Sunday, February 12, 2012
homework on the first day of school
such is the life of a victorian, or that of any pre-university student.
so school has officially started. that means the end of orientation and the beginning of countless lectures and tutorials that just drone on and on and on and on...
i was half an hour late for class on tuesday, the first official day of school. if this were to get into any of my ex teachers ears it would definitely not be pleasant. actually i reached the school gate 10 mins after the bell rang, but was kept standing there, feeding flies and listening to the management in-charge lecture us for 20 minutes. but thankfully vj does not have a very distinct demerit system (unlikecoughsscgscoughs), your parents will just be issued a warning letter after mutiple times of latecoming or offences. and as far as i'm concerened, i'm not someone who would commit so significant offences that a warning letter would be sent to home. probably just latecoming (of which i was booked for thrice in sec 4, resulting in my 6 demerit points that i've somehow neevr paid detention for hahahaha) but that my mother probably would know of beforehand.
anyway tutorials are fine. but lectures are crazily fast and chim that its hard to be on the same page and pace with the lecturer. but vj, homework is very slack. they only mark (in other words, you only need to hand in) assignments probably a few times each term. the other homework or rather, practices, are all supposed to be done on your own by continuous self-check, self-discipline or for most of the cases, peer pressure. so i guess in that aspect its more relaxing for teachers don't put too much attention on you. but one has to be mindful and not go overboard with the freedom. this, is probably the main difference between sc and vj.
chem and math sucks like shit. the only lessons i'm enjoying (or not complaining about) now are history econs gp and perhaps PW if i get a fun group. ^^
i realise i use brackets a lot. but am i even using it correctly, i don't know. hang on
screw this i just wiki-ed 'bracket' and they start giving me parentheses (), curly brackets, chevrons and square brackets and some other shit. the only definition available is "Brackets are tall punctuation marks used in matched pairs within text, to set apart or interject other text."
which is basically what i'm doing right? so let's assume my use of brackets is correct.
my class is fine, as i've said before. we got closer together after spending an hour in the sea at ecp on friday while getting our faces and arms burnt. not extremely close yet but i think everything takes time so... we'll see.
met up with OG on friday at suntec!! by far the most fun event of the year. mass dancing at suntec and going around the fountain of wealth in human trains screaming things like "cyclops!" , "62!", "C1!" and most importantly, "sc-gs!" OG mates are fun people to be with i wish we can really meet up every month or at least a few times per year! i hate how we're all in different classes and separated that i don't even see all of them around.
ccas currenly are the worst part of jc life. kind of ironic because that used to be the best thing that happened to me in scgs! but well i guess not wanting to join choir again has its consequences. i tried for track and field and didn't get in (overestimation of my abilities here hahahaha) and right now i have ODAC, dance, photography, table tennis under my sign up sheet. i did sign up for cross country as well but that must have occured when my brain was filled with bullshit or sth.
pe in vj is the craziest lesson ever. doesn't help when you get the strictest teacher in town. ran 3.2k at ecp the first pe lesson and did some rounds and shit drills (20 push ups, 40 sit ups, 40 bending up and jumping back shit) at 5 o' clock in the afternoon during remedial pe. seriously i hope i'll pass the mock napfa if not i'll have to stay back every thurs sweating my ass off. but i doubt so because my standing broad jump and pull ups are freaking shit.
ok i'm done here. school tomorrow again! i'll be posting soon.
so school has officially started. that means the end of orientation and the beginning of countless lectures and tutorials that just drone on and on and on and on...
i was half an hour late for class on tuesday, the first official day of school. if this were to get into any of my ex teachers ears it would definitely not be pleasant. actually i reached the school gate 10 mins after the bell rang, but was kept standing there, feeding flies and listening to the management in-charge lecture us for 20 minutes. but thankfully vj does not have a very distinct demerit system (unlikecoughsscgscoughs), your parents will just be issued a warning letter after mutiple times of latecoming or offences. and as far as i'm concerened, i'm not someone who would commit so significant offences that a warning letter would be sent to home. probably just latecoming (of which i was booked for thrice in sec 4, resulting in my 6 demerit points that i've somehow neevr paid detention for hahahaha) but that my mother probably would know of beforehand.
anyway tutorials are fine. but lectures are crazily fast and chim that its hard to be on the same page and pace with the lecturer. but vj, homework is very slack. they only mark (in other words, you only need to hand in) assignments probably a few times each term. the other homework or rather, practices, are all supposed to be done on your own by continuous self-check, self-discipline or for most of the cases, peer pressure. so i guess in that aspect its more relaxing for teachers don't put too much attention on you. but one has to be mindful and not go overboard with the freedom. this, is probably the main difference between sc and vj.
chem and math sucks like shit. the only lessons i'm enjoying (or not complaining about) now are history econs gp and perhaps PW if i get a fun group. ^^
i realise i use brackets a lot. but am i even using it correctly, i don't know. hang on
screw this i just wiki-ed 'bracket' and they start giving me parentheses (), curly brackets, chevrons and square brackets and some other shit. the only definition available is "Brackets are tall punctuation marks used in matched pairs within text, to set apart or interject other text."
which is basically what i'm doing right? so let's assume my use of brackets is correct.
my class is fine, as i've said before. we got closer together after spending an hour in the sea at ecp on friday while getting our faces and arms burnt. not extremely close yet but i think everything takes time so... we'll see.
met up with OG on friday at suntec!! by far the most fun event of the year. mass dancing at suntec and going around the fountain of wealth in human trains screaming things like "cyclops!" , "62!", "C1!" and most importantly, "sc-gs!" OG mates are fun people to be with i wish we can really meet up every month or at least a few times per year! i hate how we're all in different classes and separated that i don't even see all of them around.
ccas currenly are the worst part of jc life. kind of ironic because that used to be the best thing that happened to me in scgs! but well i guess not wanting to join choir again has its consequences. i tried for track and field and didn't get in (overestimation of my abilities here hahahaha) and right now i have ODAC, dance, photography, table tennis under my sign up sheet. i did sign up for cross country as well but that must have occured when my brain was filled with bullshit or sth.
pe in vj is the craziest lesson ever. doesn't help when you get the strictest teacher in town. ran 3.2k at ecp the first pe lesson and did some rounds and shit drills (20 push ups, 40 sit ups, 40 bending up and jumping back shit) at 5 o' clock in the afternoon during remedial pe. seriously i hope i'll pass the mock napfa if not i'll have to stay back every thurs sweating my ass off. but i doubt so because my standing broad jump and pull ups are freaking shit.
ok i'm done here. school tomorrow again! i'll be posting soon.
Monday, February 6, 2012
drowning in my sweat... and a bit of rain (eew)
so i just came home from running.
well it started pouring halfway and i had to take shelter at some under the highway shit just at the side of the jogging track. i rather like the feeling of sweat drops and rain drops both falling on me together, but i think once is enough for sometimes the rain really blurs your vision and dampens your running morale (no matter how much a person can like rain). worst of all, sometimes when a droplet of what seems to be rain touches your lips, instead of tasting refreshing precipitation (..) from the heavens, you taste something a little more salty and a little more unappealing. well then you realised you actually tasted your sweat and accompanied with the tiredness after jogging for a long time, it just starts to go downhill from there.
but actually i thank the rain today for it has made me run more than i thought i could accomplish. i haven't ran since.. goodness knows when. like one month ago? (and that before that one incident i haven't ran since november)
when the seniors said "nobody in vj is unfit", i literally went 'shit!' in my head because i know, no matter how much i seem very sporty, i am not. my standing broad jump is just... pathetic. very miserable grades and everything is just.. gross. but i don't wanna go for remedial pe! (yeah there's such thing in vj, basically you stay back during the afternoons to work out)
oh and did i say. apparently my first few pe lessons are going to be spent running because VJ takes part in this cross country shit annually. which means, we have to train to run to complete the run. urgh! no wonder nobody in vj is unfit!
anyway lessons and lectures officially start tomorrow and walao this is shit. i want to play more damn it! but thankfully my class is doing fine, just that i think we could be closer even more. but we have time so ^^ i miss my OG (cyclops 1!!!) so damn much though :( it sucks that when you're just getting used to these people, you have to be separated into your classes and who knows when you'll meet up again! thank goodness we have this suntec mass dance thing this friday where i would be able to wear my cyclops badge again! but apart from that, i hope C1 continues to meet up!!
i feel like i'll blabber if i continue on! so i'll just end it here with a really interesting thing i found on 9gag ^^
Saturday, February 4, 2012
VJO'12 (CYCLOPS!!!)
ayye, just a copy over from pei's style of blogging, the author here is still currently not used to being branded as a victorian. there's always this part of my heart that clutches and shrinks back a little when i scream "VICTORIA!", or when the emcee addresses us as victorians. whenever that happens, my mind automatically shifts to scgs, being called 'kim geks' during assemblies those mornings not long before. the 'kim geks' that tina neoh or any other overly-enthusiastic teacher (or principal) call us used to be cringe-worthy, but now, it has become a little endearing.
to be honest, even though i complain a lot about sc and sc's screwed up (or not, now i think) education system, sc has been good to me no doubt. she has given me friends that will stay for life, teachers that are so damn dedicated and patient as well as all the help i need to excel in both my academic and non-academic areas. so here i thank scgs and swear that i'll always remember sc.
but that being said, its not like VJ's been bad to me.
in fact, VJ has been so much better than expected. up to the extent where it has caused my regret of not getting into HCI to die down so much that it now only takes up a pathetic less than a percent of my thoughts.
the first day of orientation on tuesday started with so much apprehension than excitement. but more of the latter took over when i realised farisha was my OGL. and then we were introduced to our other 2 ogls, ian and yong siang who i now feel are the most patient and helpful and enthusiastic ogls ever. without them, or if i had really sucky and heck carey ogls, i'm sure i'll still be wallowing in self pity of not going into hci or more seriously, blame vj for stealing my choice away. that would really suck up my 2 years being there.
on the first day, everyone was still so foreign with each other that we barely talked or dared to speak a little louder. my OG (CYCLOPS 1!!!! or rather, 洗碗）consists of ... (hang on while i sort out all the names) Junyu, Emma, Qiong Hua, Qiu Ran, Qing Ying, Crystal, Isha, Jocelyn, Huicong, Pinyi, Guang Ming, Adrian, Rahul, Ammar and Justinian, who joined on the 2nd day. ^^ actually its not like any of these names will make sense to you unless you're from cyclops (CYCLOPS!!!) but i thought i'll just list them out because they are worth it.
but yeah, thankfully on the second day, we got closer. 2nd day was the day of wet and dirty games. we dunked our faces in flour while using our lips to search out tic tacs, sat on a combination of fountain water, tomato sauce, soy sauce and who knows what else, smashed and being smashed with water bombs, ran and rolled in soap water and got all hot, sweaty, sticky, wet and dirty. but well we opened up more and cheered significantly louder than the first day. and then we went to the airport for dinner, which ended up in more games and forfeits.
third day was more games and boring sleepy talks and somewhere in the morning, we learnt some mass dances. after lunch we were asked to gather in our classes (woo 12s62!!!) and i'm glad to say, my class is fine ^^. 'fine' should be said in the trolling way with eyebrows raised but not with a straight face. fine i meant this face.
to be honest, even though i complain a lot about sc and sc's screwed up (or not, now i think) education system, sc has been good to me no doubt. she has given me friends that will stay for life, teachers that are so damn dedicated and patient as well as all the help i need to excel in both my academic and non-academic areas. so here i thank scgs and swear that i'll always remember sc.
but that being said, its not like VJ's been bad to me.
in fact, VJ has been so much better than expected. up to the extent where it has caused my regret of not getting into HCI to die down so much that it now only takes up a pathetic less than a percent of my thoughts.
the first day of orientation on tuesday started with so much apprehension than excitement. but more of the latter took over when i realised farisha was my OGL. and then we were introduced to our other 2 ogls, ian and yong siang who i now feel are the most patient and helpful and enthusiastic ogls ever. without them, or if i had really sucky and heck carey ogls, i'm sure i'll still be wallowing in self pity of not going into hci or more seriously, blame vj for stealing my choice away. that would really suck up my 2 years being there.
on the first day, everyone was still so foreign with each other that we barely talked or dared to speak a little louder. my OG (CYCLOPS 1!!!! or rather, 洗碗）consists of ... (hang on while i sort out all the names) Junyu, Emma, Qiong Hua, Qiu Ran, Qing Ying, Crystal, Isha, Jocelyn, Huicong, Pinyi, Guang Ming, Adrian, Rahul, Ammar and Justinian, who joined on the 2nd day. ^^ actually its not like any of these names will make sense to you unless you're from cyclops (CYCLOPS!!!) but i thought i'll just list them out because they are worth it.
but yeah, thankfully on the second day, we got closer. 2nd day was the day of wet and dirty games. we dunked our faces in flour while using our lips to search out tic tacs, sat on a combination of fountain water, tomato sauce, soy sauce and who knows what else, smashed and being smashed with water bombs, ran and rolled in soap water and got all hot, sweaty, sticky, wet and dirty. but well we opened up more and cheered significantly louder than the first day. and then we went to the airport for dinner, which ended up in more games and forfeits.
third day was more games and boring sleepy talks and somewhere in the morning, we learnt some mass dances. after lunch we were asked to gather in our classes (woo 12s62!!!) and i'm glad to say, my class is fine ^^. 'fine' should be said in the trolling way with eyebrows raised but not with a straight face. fine i meant this face.
which means, my class is turning up awesome. hahaha guys can really liven up the mood and make everything funny instead of screamy. and then we went back to our OGs and by then, i've developed a strong liking for C1 that i'm pretty sure i'll miss C1 damn alot when we separate.
and indeed, on the fourth day when we spent the whole morning and half the afternoon with our class, i did miss them. its this dependence you have on them because they're your first few friends in a foreign land you know. plus, it doesn't help that they are actually all awesome people. i really want C1 to stay together and meet up every third sat of the month or something. they're really really nice friends!!
so well this post is turning up really long winded and shit so i'm going to end this soon. even though we suffocated in the hall that stank of sweat and shoes and humidity, even though we were all people from different places just gathered together for barely a few days, even though i was allocated to my second choice, i'm really glad i ended up in vj (even though travelling is hell of a b****). so much that i'm already anticipating next monday (that has never happened in my entire schooling life i swear) and seeing both of OG mates and classmates.
so there. roughly the sum up for everything. oh and did i mention, cyclops (CYCLOPS!!!) emerged third (of 8) overall! that's damn freaking awesome! its a great start to a great year ^^
right so i'll see you guys around. for those who didn't get into their first choice (which surprisingly is a lot this year), don't be disappointed anymore because its really useless to be sad over something that cannot be helped anymore.
since MOE trolled you, troll back.
and indeed, on the fourth day when we spent the whole morning and half the afternoon with our class, i did miss them. its this dependence you have on them because they're your first few friends in a foreign land you know. plus, it doesn't help that they are actually all awesome people. i really want C1 to stay together and meet up every third sat of the month or something. they're really really nice friends!!
so well this post is turning up really long winded and shit so i'm going to end this soon. even though we suffocated in the hall that stank of sweat and shoes and humidity, even though we were all people from different places just gathered together for barely a few days, even though i was allocated to my second choice, i'm really glad i ended up in vj (even though travelling is hell of a b****). so much that i'm already anticipating next monday (that has never happened in my entire schooling life i swear) and seeing both of OG mates and classmates.
so there. roughly the sum up for everything. oh and did i mention, cyclops (CYCLOPS!!!) emerged third (of 8) overall! that's damn freaking awesome! its a great start to a great year ^^
right so i'll see you guys around. for those who didn't get into their first choice (which surprisingly is a lot this year), don't be disappointed anymore because its really useless to be sad over something that cannot be helped anymore.
since MOE trolled you, troll back.
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